Final project proposal

For my final project I would like to do a serious monologue. This would benefit me in many ways as well as being different than the other projects I have done this year. Throughout this semester I have done a lot of comedic work such as my monologue about seeing a fake ghost, the bank robbery silent movie, and the candy shop scene. By doing a serious monologue I can work on different emotions than I have all semester. I can try to portray sadness, confusion, and anger which I haven't worked on as much as I have done with happier emotions. It would also help to stretch me as an actress because I would have to memorize my lines for the scene, which is one of the things that I need to improve on. In both the rejection devising scene, and the spoken word poetry project I have been able to read off of a script while performing. I think that being forced to go without a script will challenge me as an actress and improve my memorization habits. Doing this monologue can also play to some of my strengths. For example because of the monologue I have chosen there are a lot of places in which I can add blocking. In my previous monologue this was one of the better aspects of my performance that I can continue to improve upon. Another strength that this monologue can showcase is portraying the age and background of the character. In my last monologue I did this effectively and I can continue to do this during this project. The monologue I have chosen is about a teen girl probably around 16 years old who is very insecure.
The monologue that I have chosen is about a girl who is struggling to show her emotions because she is afraid she is going to be hurt by someone. She thinks that being emotional is a sign of weakness because the people that she has shown emotion to have stabbed her in the back. In the end she is torn between staying closed off and protected or taking another risk and being hurt again. To effectively perform this monologue I will have to show the regret and anger she has for the people who hurt her as well as the desire to be less vulnerable.
This monologue is interesting to me because there are many different conflicting emotions that are going on inside this person's head. Anxiety, vulnerability, hate and trust are all key parts of the emotion this person is feeling which I need to portray. I want to do this monologue because I want to be challenged emotionally. Throughout this semester I have done pieces that have more on the surface meanings. This monologue will require me to analyze what the girl is feeling in order to accurately portray these feelings.
I have made some changes to the monologue that I have selected, I have added parts throughout the performance where I am reminiscing about a person in the past that I let into my life. I let them get close to me and they ended up stabbing me in the back. Throughout the monologue whenever I am talking about my past relationships I go on the bridge and I am asking questions to a person who isn’t there, or I am asking myself questions about why I let this person get so close to me. This adds another layer of complexity to the monologue as I have to transition from anger at my past mistakes to confusion about my current circumstances.